World Awarness

I could tell you about the LTE that we went through in the beginning of May, but apparently this guy was able to sneak a camera into the LTE soo I'll just let you get a glimpse of his view and what life was like on the run and on Man v Wild ((:

On a side note: I remember being on the "run" and seeing the masses of people running because we knew we were being chased. I felt like the holy spirit was really just telling me that we are really going to be living like this in a couple of years that while we might have been role playing for the weekend that one day we are going to look back and realize that it was almost like foreshadowing..

The Unreached People

In March the internship had an LTE called the Unreached People Group.  During this time we had to become REAL ethnic groups that have not heard the gospel.  I had the opportunity to be an "unreached"  then there was a group of people that were the "missionaries" that brought the gospel to share the GOOD NEWS.  It was hands on training to learn how to adapt to people from different cultures our group.  The name of my group was the Nhang Tribe we had some of the best missionaries we could have asked for. They were very loving and kind.
They showed us the true love of God and eventually "saved" us. the LTE more than anything was to show us and open our eyes that it may not always be easy because you will have to possibly learn a new language or be careful with certain gestures because it is offensive to the people you are trying to reach.  "Though I am free and belong to no one, I have made myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law.  To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God’s law but am under Christ’s law), so as to win those not having the law. ²² To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some. I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings."

-Paul.

voluntary weakness

Well it has been a while, I apologize I am not all that great at keeping everything up to date.  Well  back in February we had our second three day fast.  I remember going into the fast thinking that it was going to be great because back in November it was an amazing time of just encountering the Lord.  I really was ready and just wanted to go all in and experience him, however the Spring brought forth anything but life during that fast.  I remember being very weak, tired, and hungry.  I would take naps and dream that I broke fast.  I remember thinking that the goal went from truly encountering the Lord in a new and exciting way to, "Do not break fast." I really saw the hand of the Lord come over me and really just guide me  to have strength to not fall into  temptation .  Sometimes in life we think that something that is "suppose" to be easy propose us to be some of the most difficult tasks that we face.  At the end of it all the glory really goes to the Lord.  Like Paul says "For when I am weak, then I am strong."  We are not strong in ourselves because if we could do it we would not need God, however; that is not the case at all we are made weak to truly understand are uttermost dependence on the Lord and not take for granted how powerful he is and what He can do in our lives.  Time and time again I am reminded that when I can no longer walk that he comes along side to carry me through it all.  Praises to my King.

hello eleven

It has been a while since I last wrote. I hope that all of are doing well.  Just wanted to let you guys know how things are going.  About a month ago we got our new class of Januaries.  Before leaving for break I really wanted a couple of Januaries.  I remember thinking that six girls was not enough, but then to my dismay I learned that we were not going to be getting any more.  I was very heart broken and sad.  On top of it all I learned that one of my brother's was getting pulled out of our family core and getting put as an ACA for one of the new January cores.  I was devastated.  Then I heard the Lord tell me, "He is not your's why are you so sad?  He is mine I can do with him as I please.  As long as you have fear of people leaving you I will continue to pull and rip them out of your life.  I am all you need I will not leave you, I will not forsake you." I learned that my brothers as well were not getting a January.  My entire family was going to be a strict August core.  With the ratio of two men per woman... I began to wonder how we were going to manage.  Moving into one room with six women is to say the least tuff.  I don't know how we manage to be honest.  There is little privacy and you learn that there is little room for mess.  So things have to be kept in there own space in order to things to run smoothly and for the room to stay in order.  I remember reading in a book for our World View class a part where Colson (the author) visits Garcia Moreno Prison and he describes the conditions of twelve men in a dark room six beds (metal sheets attached to the walls)  taking turns sleeping or lying on the floor.  Which was covered with mildew and mold.  I remember thinking... thank you Lord for what I have.  Next door to us we have an all January core.  I was really excited because we have unofficially adopted them.  So instead of getting just one or two sisters I have obtained SIX! this made me very happy :))
  The Lord has really just been challenging me with seeking him more.  I love the Lord a lot.  I am very thankful for everything that he has done.  I can testify on how great He is on the things he has done in my life as well as those around me.  I sometimes wonder why he loves me so much... 
I am so dirty and like Ezekiel 16:5 "No one had the slightest interest in you; no one pitied you or cared for you. On the day you were born, you were unwanted, dumped in a field and left to die"
THAT WAS ME.  THAT IS ME!  However, God had pity on me... he loves me!!! He actually wants something with me.  I don't deserve it.  
What am I doing though for him?  Do i seek after him the way I should?  NO.  I am lazy I don't want to fast a meal to seek him face, unless it's corporate.  There are people dying In Portland, People living in darkness... 
The other day someone left us a letter:
"Thank you so much for doing what you do.  I am a resident of Oregon and I have lived there my whole life.  People in Oregon are living for nothing.  They are addicted to week, meth, alcohol, and being superficial.  They are lost, confused, and living in darkness, Even though these people are living in darkness; these are my people.  I love them.  Thank you for being faithful and coming into everyday even when you didn't want to.  Thank you for being Christ to the people you call.  Thank you for bringing God to Oregon.  Please do not grow weary of doing good the fruit will be produced.  I can't express my gratitude."
I don't know who left it.  As I mentioned in the past I call for the state of Oregon.  The percentage of Christians is extremely low.  Like two percent of People are Christians.  The terrain is tuff and the soil is very hard.  I have come to love Portland with all my heart.  I call people daily that say it's a waste of my time because they have no youth.  Guess what that is NOT wasting my time.  People laugh because they do not have active youth groups... That is not funny.  It is sad.  It stirs up frustration how can you sleep at night knowing that there are so many youth dying on the streets and okay living among sin?  Senior pastors telling me that their youth is okay where they are at..  Complacency.  I am disgusted.   Please help me pray for my event.  Pray that the entire state of Oregon can come to know Jesus.  that the entire state may bow down and give him praise.  Please pray that I may come to know my Savior more and learn more about his heart and mind.  I want to look into his eyes when I finally meet him and truly know him.  Not by name, not by what I heard,  but what he whispered to me in the quite place in the times that we were together and I heard his heartbeat.  The times that I lay my head on his chest and he held me.  
I don't want this world.  This world has nothing for me.