Canada

I just came back from our ATF in Hamilton, Canada this past Monday.  It was a thirty something hour trip on a bus with about forty of us on SWAT/SUPPORT.  I am so glad that I was able to participate with the event because the Lord just continues to pour out his love on me is such great ways.  I remember really wanting to be part of the Merchandise team which is basically you just go and sells shirts and stuff at a booth, however I was chosen to be one of the head usher captains.  At first I thought it was lame I was upset because I did not want to do ushering in such a huge arena, however by the end of the event I loved what I did.  I had a group of volunteers that I directed they were fantastic I was on the floor of the Copps Colosseum  basically making sure that nothing was going wrong. Maintaining order I got to have a really neat head set that made me look like a security/CIA person.  I was dressed all in black and people listened to me.  I was nice.  I made sure that the people were not recording and did not have laser pointers.  Also during the bands that played... Newsboys, Jimmy Needham, Unhindered, School of Worship, R Swift, and L G Wise  I got to stand in front of the stage and help keep order.  It was really funny actually simply because of my stature.  Of the other three people that were with me were to of my guy friends both that are really really tall.  An easy 5'9 and 6'0.  Then there is me an easy 5'1 maybe 5'2 on a day when I were shoes with soles... haha but anyway I stood there and did nothing just watched three thousand young people worship the Lord and give him glory through music.  It was amazing I remember that the last worship session that we had  I really felt the presence of the Lord and you knew that the Holy Spirit was moving in that place.  My eyes struggled to stay dry, but at last I could not and I cried.  I cried out of gratitude because of my dad's goodness and faithfulness. I cried because what we do counts.  We are the hands and feet of the bride.  Our generation is so lost, the enemy has them so  trapped with these lies that religion is dead.  That there is no God, how could he exist and allow such iniquity to happen all over the world.. My question is how can you not see the hand of the Lord over everything.  How good he is, how loving, how can you stand and see all the beauty and still question?  Amazing..  I remember finally we were doing a final sweep of the place to make sure that any compassion kids (sponsor pages) were not left behind because they take roughly six months to put together.  I remember passing up and down the arena and seeing so many papers for missions left scattered all over the floor carelessly and I thought  this is so sad.  These people are lost and need to be ministered too, how can you be so wasteful and just began to get upset I remember asking the Lord is it even worth it... We invest so much money into making these pamphlets so that they can just be left there all over the floor..  Then the spirit let me know,  "If one, if only one person get's it, then yes it is."  Then I understood.  It may seem like a waste but if one person picks up the pamphlet fills it out goes on missions and sees what a need there is everywhere, then it was so worth all of it.  Also on the way back we were able to go to Niagara Falls... it was four thirty in the morning and it was simply amazing.  It is weird because before I left I remember thinking to myself how amazing must a real waterfall sound...  I remembered looking up pictures on Google because I thought they were amazing and I thought about the voice of the lord coming like rushing waters.  Then there I am the feeling is very surreal  I can not describe I could not see well but the sound was so beautiful  I honestly could only thank the Lord and his goodness and love.  Praise the King of Kings.  My dad is amazing.  Well on a final note this is the week much waited for our fasting LTE Thursday through Saturday we are going to kill our flesh and built our spirit man.  I am excited to share what the Lord is going to revile  I pray blessings upon the church much love 

L ♥ V E

so I have been reading 1 corinthians ch. 13. during my quiet times It speaks on love, it is a chapter very well known throughout the church and we know  how love it patient, love is kind, it does not boast... so on and so forth however what we fail to realize is prior to speaking about the acts that are love it tells us just how much anything else is meaningless without it.  If i speak with the tongues of man but have not love i am but a resounding gong... so what is love?  Love, love is found in Christ alone.  So when you take out love and insert God it fits perfectly, and if you take out love and insert your name does it match up still...?  Is Caroline patient? is Caroline Kind? Do I not delight in evil, but rejoice in truth?... No Therefore I lack love.  So how is it that we throw around a word with so much meaning on any and everything... ie I love you, I love my car, I love my house...?  We take a word with so much meaning that really is so powerful and mix it with mud, taint what it's true meaning is.  We should really be careful when to use this word and when we think about those that we "love," let us reflect on our actions toward them are we not easily angered toward them... or do we self seek?  I am not perfect and I recognize this and you may think well Caroline do not condemn yourself  it's okay to not be perfect, but here is the great part... verse 11 when perfection comes the imperfect disappears.  WOW  What revelation when perfection comes!! the imperfection disappears!!! So who is perfection? CHRIST is perfection so when CHRIST comes, when Christ comes into my life, my imperfection disappears because it no longer matters that I am imperfect because he now dwells in me he lives within.  Therefore this fleshly Caroline that is self seeking no longer is going on her own strength but it is Christ living in her it is Christ giving her patients, it is Christ giving her kindness toward  others.  No longer am I battling it out on my own, but Christ in me.! Praise the Lamb.  I honestly want to love like nobodies business, my enemies, my family, my king.  My everything.  I want to love the unlovable.  We love because he first loved us.

FREEDOM

This week is a week that we have had the honor in having Sy Rogers join us for fifteen hours of outpouring on topics that the church is very reserved on.  Topics such as pornography, masturbation, and homosexuality.  While this is not something that may seem worth while, I'd like to say that it is something that our youth is facing and that the culture that surrounds us is saying "its okay."  While on the other hand we have a church that is saying, "this is wrong, you are going to burn in hell for such acts, REPENT."  It is a topic of much controversy that can uprise hostility.  Sy is an amazing man of God that speaks truth, but very directly .  To tell you where God has pulled him out of is a story in itself.  However, here is his website I highly recommend that you look him up and check out some of his footage.  http://www.syrogers.com/ This week of FREEDOM is new it is something that we are being the prototype of.  I am very excited.  I have learned a lot while we are only on day two God has revealed a lot to me through these sessions.  One thing that sticks out the most to me is the topic of struggle.  We all have something that we struggle and with, when we accepted Christ as our Lord it was not like taking some pill that would automatically take away all the symptoms of our sickness.  We still have symptoms but we knew that if we continued to seek God our struggle would not overpower us, on the other hand we would have victory!  There is so much that goes on I would never end telling my stories.  For real Let me think what else is worthwhile, OH! God has given me the opportunity to travel to Hamilton, Canada from October 20-27 for the ATF event up there.  I am really excited and praying that it is a blessing :))  So if you would please keep me in your prayers so that God takes and brings us back safely.  This past week was our first bi-weekly fast on Wednesday.  twenty four hours that this temple went without food.  It was very interesting.  I was a little nervous at first but I knew that God is good and he truly gave me the strength to not have hunger I had breakthrough on some things that I was praying about so PRAISE JESUS on that.  Every other Wed.  we will be fasting to build up to our next LTE (life transforming event) in November a three day fast.  Now that I am afraid of.  I really do pray and hope that I don't die... haha I'm sure I wont but nevertheless, I pray.  I really want the Lord to reveal and give me a vision and purpose to work towards and to speak to me.  I am also praying that I can I will experience him in a new way... I can't explain it yet, but by faith when I do, I WILL TELL YOU! Ahhh okay so again.  Thank you so much for your prayers I know that God is listening to them and blessing  me! I pray that he blesses each and everyone of your families in abundance.  Until next time be at peace I am still alive doing well growing in the things of the lord, blessings!